Rebirth

Isnt it funny when the chaos clears in your head and you finally have a plan and you feel like youre set, right? But thats exactly when you should fear the worst. So i have my next 2 years planned, i get to stay in Dallas and explore my loves, tour, wine and food. Now this is exactly what you should never do. When you make sense of the chaos.com thats when life will throw you a wrench, mostly because she is so bitter, but also because she likes to fuck with people. I can dig that as all of you who know me know. Now, the question lies, when you are trying to solve the chaos and you succeed, should you never have done that as its a self-defeating prophecy? Fuck no, because I have many many scenarios planned in my head, and what i perceive to be the wrench is actually something I have an eventuality for. BUT when that wrench does finally come, ill be crying like the little bitch i am... Nightey night cruel world, hello sweet oblivion, out of the ashes I am the phoenix

D-I-V-O-R-C-E

A wise woman once said, women are for friendship, men are for fucking. But does that include fucking over? Something that has always perplexed me is the ability of people to manipulate a situation and think they have done it without anyone realizing they were the puppeteers. I mean, please, i see the strings! So when does it become necessary to let loose with all barrels?
Once again, im faced with the same dilema, is it okay to let the ego decide for the sake of momentary sanity? I have had many beautiful disasters lately and ive had yet another. While i was sad at first i began to realize something. Every single unforseen and tragic happening has turned out to be some rebirth in disguise. Will the streak continue? Or will it all come tumbling down like a house of cards? I sit and ponder the HDTV that will soon filter through my television.

The labyrinth of life

Okay so here's a really interesting thought, when is ego a suitable decision-maker? One thing i really love about life is these crazy twists it takes you on. One minute you think you have it all figured out, and pow, haha, you dont. This is a very seriously messed up thing to think about if you're a control freak like i tend to be. So, heres the situation, if someone presented you with the opportunity to basically go back somewhere and shove it in everyone's face, would you do it? Knowing fully well that it may not be the best choice in the long run. You desperately want someone to get it back for any slight they might have caused you, but is it ever okay to let the ego make that decision. For as long as i have been listening women have said that men are run by their cocks, men say women are ruled by their expectations. But i havent heard anything about the ego. Sure, some people thoughout history had that luxury and did that to their detriment, but this isnt something that is as far reaching as that. So i sit and ponder, and wait for the phone to ring.

Que Sera Sera

Now, i know you all have been dying for me to try and set something like this up, and you know, I question your sanity. So i have gotten alot of ideas for the blog which i will vomit all over this page until I figure out where I want to go with this. I have never thought of myself as a writer even though i have an outline for a sitcom and a feature film as well. Someone once said they felt so awesome when they were able to vent, i have no idea if thats even a possibility but i figure its time to find out. My brother also wants me to help him write a tell all book.... Dont see that happening in the near future but we will see, wont we. For now, i have one bit of wisdom to impart, there is nothing in life that cant be fixed with duct tape and/or 2x4's.